i'm stucked..

okayyy..
tetibe rasa change of heart..
kene blaja bende2 sains nihhh.

YA ALLAH, PERMUDAHKANLAH AKU MEMAHAMI ILMU2 NIIIIIII..
haha. adiman.
baru starting ko dah menggigil n tertiidur lam kelas?
come on lah gurl!
you're stronger than that?
*the question is, am i?*
what the eff am i trying to prove here?
am i that strong to go through thisss.
my choices was either asasi sains or matrix..
god, i really wanted to put asasi tesl as first choice..
or go to that interview guru matematik ..
what am i doing...


i'm not lost..
i'm just too lazy to prepare my ass off..
i'm too tired to get myself up and energetic againn..
i may bee the annoying adiman that makes everyone smiles to what i do..
inside me, there's a billion gazillions of questions inside my head..
of what am i doing..
that's why i like jogging n listening to songs..
it relaxes me and let me calm myself down..


everyone here is freaking me out with the studying stuffs.
not that i can't survive in that situation..
no dear..
i can survive ..
it's just..
i'm feeling someting empty inside of me..
those laughters with my friends..
the gossips..
well, that i can grow up from..

i'm missing something here..
something in my life..
not a nother soul searching..
please, i'm sick of that.

i don't really know what is wrong with me..
or maybe there's nothing wrong..
i'm just..
a little bit to emotional..
advices please?



i don't know who to be comfort with here..
jana is like a bersabar person..
my matjiwa friends?
i feel like an outcast with them..
i miss them much. yeah..
but, i can't hang with them..
it's like im speaking a different language..
godd. i miss najwa n hazwani n yann..
favourite places for me to let it out..

i miss farah.. eventhough she's here..
but since that incident of pissing of pak pin.
i feel miserable beiong close to her.
sorry babe.

yeah i miss mus.
those crazy ideas i get just to get his attention.
filling up my time.
haha.

adilah.
new name : adiman
yeah, dats me.