my deepest recent regret.

damn it
i got hurt again. he knows that i was for real. yet he kept playing.
yeah, thanx for the heads up weh. what the hell of a prank are you trying to play here? THANX A LOT for making me TRUST GUYS even better. i easily get attached or fall for someone. yet, you knowing that, didn't take that into consideration? thanx for doing it. thanx for putting me in a though spot. thanx a lot. i'm not okay, but if i told you that, would it even matter? what would you comfort me with? why goddamn it why. one month. all that just to make me what? suffer. YA ALLAH , aku igt kau lain, rupanya. haih.
I'M NOT ANGRY, REVENGEFUL, just, dissapointed. i thought i could trust you. but the truth hurts right?

i'm glad i was hurt yesterday. the heartache n those merciful tears. i'm glad i hold on to my wits and din't text you the whole day. i'm glad i did text you tonight and knowing the truth. cause as i said, NOW I KNOW WHERE I STAND, AND NOW I CAN PREVENT MYSELF FROM DOING STUPID STUFFS. but you still din't have a clue what was that stupid thing i was going to do. it was falling for you even deeper. an caring bout you more.

i hope you know i'm weak. coz i can't stand holding up my feelings.
i hope you read this post.
stop caring for me, it would make my life less miserable.
coz, if we continue what we used to do, i don't think i can stop myself anymore.
i need distance. and it's gonna hurt me, again.
yet, one week apart, it's gonna help me in a way.

thanks for stopping me at this stage.
but you know better than that.
i fell for you long ago.
the heart ache you gave me, it's one i've had before.
ad trust me. you won't get 2nd chances.
once i stop, i never start back.

umi, fera,hara, i need you to cheer me up.

listening to taylor swift, you're not sorry. it suits the post well. :(