how do i express myself to you?

i've always thought of telling you & you bout my problem...
but, you were so hard to find when i needed you..
and the other you. when i saw ur face..
i couldn't express myself. i din't know where to start T.T
so, how exactly do i share what i'm going through?
i really wanted you to become the one to console me.
but everytime i'm almost shedding to tears,
i can't find the right words to tell you everything..
or maybe coz u can't notice that i'm troubled by something.
or is it the way u ask me i'm okay or not makes me feel like you don't need to know?

we see each other almost everyday, yet i still can't let my walls down by you.
hmmm