i'm really truly sorry.

last night.
i felt really like a fool.
like nobody wanted to hear me talk anymore.
i know i'm bossy.open my facebook
i know i like to ask there and here.
i know i like to take control of everything.
but that's because i'm scared.
when u guys ignored me shouting to the tips of my lungs.
i was hurt.
i cried day and night so freaking scared of everything.
and you guys take me for granted.
i know i suck at leading.
i know i'm not a good leader.
i know!!! i freaking know.
i'm trying my very beat to make it through.
no need to make me feel more stressed out please.
i actually gave up last night.
i actually went away and forget all the problems.
i actually switched off my hp.
din't open my facebook.
went to sleep like super duper early.
at 12.02 pm i'm already on the bed.

when i woke up. i regret. but.
i bet you guys din't even care.
because who am i.
just someone who thinks she is actually important and knows everything.
but the thing is. no.
i'm a sore loser. i have no right to say anything.

i'm really touched by what arieff, fitri said on my status. and what fera posted on her blog.
thanks guys, i love you dearly.

but, i think it's too much.
i think i'm of no use here. :)
i shall shut up and not bother everyone else. i'm sorry again.

yeah, baru bgun tido dah menangis coz terharu.


but paling x suka is rambut dah kritikal. sampai gugur atas bantal...
meaning gugur waktu tidur.
signs of i'm going hyper tension.

warning to my besties : I WILL FAINT ANYTIME SOON.
I WILL SHUTDOWN AND BREAKDOWN ANYTIME SOON.
IF AND ONLY IF, THEY ADD MORE MISERY ON ME. :)