i'm scared. it's not perfect this time.
everything is in a rush.
i'm afraid i cant put on my pokerface.
i cried. i cried too hard this time.
mainly because i was totally stressed out thinking what's really going on.
it's all in a slow motion, whereas time is running out.
seriously, i din't plan it to be this way.
and i am fucking scared. but the only person i trust with life to cry on has heard this story.
and i cried so damn hard until i felt very tired and hungry.
seriously, for the first time. i'm actually chickening out.
dear god. give me faith. takut giler kali ini.