future?

well, where am i going?
i feel practically like a loser and i had hit the rock bottom of my life.
why?
because my results are far from what i kept it mind?
how did it happen?
don't ask me. and don't ask what went wrong. i tried my best (?) but fate just led me sideways.
now i cant even take tesl ( HOW TERRIBLE MY RESULTS ARE )

I showed no one that I'm restless bout this.

But everytime I think about it.

I feel like dying inside.
yelaa, mana tak kan? farmasi ku idamkan tak kesampaian. TESL ku imipikan pun dah tak capai *tak dapat medsi doh*
i feel like trash? no. i feel like i better live as a teddy bear and have nothing to pursue in the future.

me is so stressed and i can't show it to anyone because the answer would be

1. sapa suruh tak belajar rajin rajin
2. sapa suruh main main
3. sapa suruh tidur dalam lecture hall
4. sapa suru tak fokus
5. sapa suruh jadi busybody
6. hang memang bengap *ada ke orang nak cakap lagu ni dkt cheq?*

anyway, anyhow. i'm trying to get back on track. see my choices.

maybe i won't be successful as quickly as the rest of you out there.

but i'll get there in time.

pray for me. cause i don't really know where im going :(