i don't have regrets.
i just have those feelings.

tipu kalau saya kata saya tak sedih. tipu kalau saya kata saya tak jeles. kawan kawan semua bersama sama menempuhi zaman degree saya. saya di sini diploma.

i've been through this. i've cried through this. but why am i thinking about this again? i got the offer, but i thought it was not good enough for me. so i continued on this. that should have made me feel okay. but why deep down i feel like crying?

i miss a part of me that are everywhere in various universities. i feel insignificant when i'm not going through the same situation as they are. i hate taking special routes. as i feel like i'm a black sheep so much. maybe that's why i'm sad. i feel too isolated. too sad. like i don't belong anywhere.

being strong always, putting on a poker face. doing my best. it's the same story. but, life can't be always great right? it's either you sacrifice or get a f up life. no, i won't live a rocky life. i want a great future. even though everything is pitch black for me.

i'm scared. i'm lonely. i'm sad. i really don't know what to think.

p/s : maybe people of left hands are meant to take special paths.

xoxo.