no way in or out.

so, i was the ordinary girl.
walked through highs and lows.
felt love, hatred. heart broken. blah3..

so, this holidays, 3 handfull months of it.
i was wishing for a guy to be in my life.
just for d sake of making me feel my time filled.
yet, there were guys in my life.
just, not the type who cheered me up.
1 month, and i ditched three guys.
sori okayh. i'm just not that interested lah.
anyway, one day i met this guy.
interested? hell yeah.
but the thing was, he's a perfect stranger to me.
which, was a good thing.
more to share. less that we know bout each other.
a fresh start.
yet, after a few days of knowing him.
decided to meet him.
after he went to poly, he was lost. dead end.
there goes one almost succesfull relationship.

then comes this next guy.
very sweet, and one heck of a friend.
made me lekat at my hp.
a thing dat i actually missed doing.
and made me laugh to myself. a lot of times.
mann. that was difficult.
i felt, something else.
but, he then explored my fb. and added another friend of mine.
i was starting to get freak outs.
not this again, when the guy say, hi, um, is that ur friend. she's hot.
i really don't like those situations.
kills like hell.
so, i dunno what i'm doing here,
still liking him.
when i don't stand a chance.
i feel like its the same situation with mustafa roslan.
who ended as my bestie.

i feel ridiculus.
someone help me.